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Nov. 16th, 2008 | 06:15 pm
location: home
mood: 
sitting on the fence
music: linkin part
If you lie on the flat of your back, looking up at everything above you, can you fall any further?
The answer:
No you cant. The safest place is lying on the floor because its impossible for you to physically proceed further down. Its the same with feelings. Stay pessemistic and skeptic and you remove yourself from the firing line of the worlds unfairness, its harshness and its misery. If you expect the worst in everything, in everyone, never will you be disappointed,and only feel gladness if the worst doesnt come.
Never put too much faith in someone, its just a set up for loss.
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U P D A T E :
Nov. 9th, 2008 | 05:50 pm
location: home
mood: 
meh
music: yellowcard
I havn't been on lately. Either Im too busy, too lazy or somewhere in between. Take your pick.
Went to Chris's 18th party last night. I was a good girl and only had one Bacardi shot and a bottle of smirnoff [berry] at the beginning of the night. then water for 3 solid hours.
It wasnt until Megan was sick and passed out that I started again. note to self: 4 Bacardi shots and another of Sambucca is not a good idea all within 20 minutes...
so i wasnt exactly sober after that... although im not sure whether its a good or bad thing that i can stil remember everything.
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What do you see?
Nov. 2nd, 2008 | 09:11 am
location: home
mood: 
meh
music: none
Its a Rorschach. What your brain interprets the inkblot as tells you something about ur state of mind. what does it say about you?
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R A N D O M T H O U G H T S
Nov. 2nd, 2008 | 08:35 am
location: Home
mood: 
exhausted
music: Seeing red - Unwritten Law
Whats going on in my brain[?]:
- '...had a bad day, dont talk to me, gonna ride this out...im sick of this sickness, dont touch me, youll get this...' Current song: Save me (wake up call) by Unwritten Law
-Cannibalism: imagine that someones liver when prepared right would look just like beetroot. As for slices of frontal lobe... well that could be like squid, or the fat on the side of a skeak...
- Is he going to text me? I shouldnt but I keep wanting to check my phone every 5 minutes...
- Work in an hour and a bit. NOTE TO SELF: need 2 tall cappuccinos [one with 2 sugars, the other with an extra shot of expresso... i need the extra caffeine]
- on the brainwave of work... its gonna be me acting like a zombie again, and listeining to bitching about the boss. its lovely [however bad that sounds] listening to Janet bitch and complain. she brings a sort of grace to the whole art...
- Has he txted me yet?
.......
stupid brain... so indecisive as to what it wants to think about...
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H A L L O W E E N
Nov. 1st, 2008 | 08:01 am
location: home
mood: 
cranky
music: 'fix you'- the offspring
It shows how much we wish we were a second America with all the people dressing up and knocking on your door begging for lollies. I guess christmas comes twice a year for dentists who get to patch up holes in your teeth from eating so much sugar. well, this is Australia! A BRITISH colony! not an american one. Why do people insist on attempting to adopt a stupid american holiday? An excuse for a party- well why not just have a party anyway? An excuse to dress up and get drunk- well, why not kill 2 birds with one stone and have a dress up BYO party?
GUY FAWKES DAY FOR DA WIN!
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Ü B E R E N G L I S H E X T E N S I O N I D E A !
Oct. 27th, 2008 | 06:07 pm
location: Home
mood: 
Inspired
music: Rammstein- Amour
After a collective 503 minutes of virtually non-stop movie watching, I have decided on the most epic of topics to write my HSC english extension 2 thesis on.
Inspired by the 4 Lector movies [Red Dragon, Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal and Hannibal Rising], my thesis will look at the homicidal tendencies of serial killers from a psychological perspective.
Im thinking that I could investigate the rituals associated with pre and post homicide [ such as methodical preparation and moral standpoints etc] as well as look at the crucial elements of the movies such as Lector's cannibalistic nature and outlook on human kind.
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Venting is an excuse to post
Oct. 26th, 2008 | 04:53 pm
location: Home
mood: 
boiling point anger
music: Incubus
Better out than in... isnt that what they say? sometimes it's better to project yourself rather than let things bottle up inside? well if thats the case, i have a lot to let loose. But all I can say here is to my Victor Frankenstein [from my Frankenstein post]... If i ever loose my conscience, you had better watch your back. I have a heart full of hate and desire for revenge and the only thing stopping me from releasing all hell onto you is the fact that I have a voice of conscience that keeps whispering in my ear. Sooner or later, that voice is going to be drained away, and when that time comes, you had better think about leaving the planet.
I cant feel anything anymore, just a boiling hatred for you and a lust to watch you hurt just like I am.
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+ Frankenstein +
Oct. 26th, 2008 | 08:53 am
location: Home
mood: 
annoyed
music: Vide Cor Meum
[random thought from the middle of the night--- can i compare myself to Mary Shelly's Frankenstein character?...we'll see...]
I am a frankenstein monster of sorts. Built from parts and broken pieces to prove that God is not the only one who can create life. Created...thats what I was. The pinnacle of my makers desire for control and dominance...his hunger for a piece of a heart to chew on. You see, my lovely audience, it is not robbed body parts that my Dr Frankenstein stitched me together with... but broken promises and a vast collection of emotions I now call limbs and flesh. Each and every inch that you see of me is a different feeling, a different memory or a different desire turned sour and rotten.
Every time he threaded the needle into my chest, he told me of his feelings. He opened up to me and told me how he felt inside, and as did I. And, whilst building, sewing and gluing me together, he saw how I felt, and he saw my weakness. He created my one down fall, the love that I harbored deep inside my heart.
I am a collection of thoughts, emotions and desires that have been sewn together by a Victor Frankenstein. Do you pity me, my lovely audience? Do you sympathize for my blind stupidity and submissiveness? Oh, what a fool I was... and what a sorry bastard my Victor Frankenstein will be. Begging for mercy as I crush his head under my foot and squeeze his heart in my hand right in front of him. So run, my dear audience and whisper terror into his ear. Tell him that his monster will come and haunt him. Tell him that his deeds will never stay privy from the rest of the world. Tell him that revenge will knock on his door, and I will make him pay for what he did to me.
http://crypdreamsted.deviantart.com/art/I-F
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entry #2
Oct. 19th, 2008 | 05:20 pm
location: home
mood: 
frustrated
music: eternal, evanescence
OCTOBER 19th, 2008. 5:21PM:
Work was good(ish), for once I wasnt yelled at by a pissed customer who felt obliged to take it out on the nearest staff member. why is that always me? Actually got work done. Bonus. Might have actually earnt my weeks pay.
Am i worth more than 1 or 2 words? i think so. why dont you? Fuck. Not going to waste credit having a nonexistant conversation with someone who doesnt comprehend that. Liar, armed with a hammer and tnt. you blew me up into bits and pieces then smashed at my heart, just to be sure it was dead.
Plus side: 530 days (or 12720 hours) til absolute freedom. (+/-) 370 days til end of high school. 5 hours til The Mentalist. 1.21 minutes til the best part of this song.
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anger is universal
Oct. 19th, 2008 | 04:46 pm
location: home
mood: annoyed
music: chevelle- vitamin R
μιλώ πότε εσύ είσαι θυμωμένος και εσύ θα κάνω το καλύτερο λόγοs εσύ θα ποτέ λύπη.
Govoriti našto ti si ljutit i te htijenje iskoristiti najbolje što se može govor te htijenje ikada žaljenje.
Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret.
Mówić podczas jesteś zły i będziesz zrobić ten najwyższa oferowana cena przemówienie będziesz kiedykolwiek żal.
Говорить когда ты быть разгневанный и ты воля делать грамматический определенный член лучший речь ты воля всегда сожалеть.
